So, I'm adopted. Thinking of 'those people' every day since the beginning. I'm in my mid forties.
I know you must be thinking - "get over it ! Why should we care? Big Deal" Sure, Ok. I get it .
I've been out of work, stuck in a rut, hoping for change. Not the kind that's evolving ( or more accurately, deteriorating) right in front of our eyes, mind you .
The kind that puts me on the right path.
So I've been dreaming, like I said I don't in the past. And I'm into analyzing them. I've been praying and meditating and seeking the real truth. My wife thinks I'm going crazy!
But things have never been clearer
Some spirit is trying to tell me something...
Stop being like a broken record. You're going around in circles. Stop dwelling in the past.
The past ( an old record) is scratched and it's skipping. You're making no progress, but you are getting to the heart of the matter. Like driving a Cadillac, but you're going backward.
Over and over again.
It's not fair, I think to myself. Then I think that they, you know 'those people' again, don't want me like they didn't want me in the 60s, and I'm wasting my time and effort and emotions.
I mean, it's really complicated, but I can handle it. Still, they don't know what I know.
I've been studying people a real long time - my whole life, really.
Everyone thinks the same thing : Why am I here ?
Well, I'm REALLY not supposed to be here. And only a rare few really get what I mean and where I'm coming from. But where are we going to ? Does anybody really know ?
A few do, but most don't...
.. because humanity has mostly done the same thing over and over, never learning from mistakes, not moving onward and upward like they have the potential to do so.
Just like me.
Just like a Broken record.
